A beautiful end to a class i thought i would not succeed in. I am pretty proud of my final project grade, never thought i would pass it. I am sitting here in the dark writing my final blog, watching the ice come down really hard outside, thought this storm would pass us by, no such luck. Thanks to all my classmates and professor for all the positive feedback through this class, it really helped. Gonna sit here and finish watching Criminal Minds and then off to sleep for me. MEL

OMG!!! What a week i am having. There is so much drama in my family right now and so many hurtful words that have been said, how do you get pass that and forgive? I am the type of person that doesnt like to be on the outs with anyone, i am a very forgiving person, but when one of the most important people in your life has continually hurt you, it is so hard to swallow your pride and forgive. I keep telling myself things will get better, but we are not promised tommorrow. So i swallow my pride and forgive, knowing i truly want to hold a grudge like a dog with a bone, and never letting go of it. On top of all the drama, it is the final week for projects at Kaplan, i am so stressed. I feel like i am giving my all to school, but will my grades reflect that?

Today has been really tough for me, it has been one year since i lost the most important person in my life, my granny. My granny was everything to me. I grew up without the affection that most children get from their parents, so i acted out to get attention from them. When i was 16, i had a huge blowup with my mother and i left home and my granny took me in with no questions ask. She was the one person who gave me the affection and respect i  wanted and she didnt expect anything in return. She taught me the things i needed to know to be a good mother and a good person. Once i was out of college, i moved out on my own, but i went home every weekend. My granny was the one person i could confide in, without judgement. Today has been really hard for me, but not as hard as the past year without her. I miss my sunday afternoon conversations i had with her. I love you, granny and i miss you more than anyone could possiblity imagine.

Wow, i just cant believe how fast this semester has went by, 3 weeks and we are done. Yeahhhh!!!!! It has been another uneventful week here in the beautiful shenandoah valley. We got 10 inches of snow this week so the kids have been out for 5 days. Glad when they go back tommorrow, but then again they are calling for a ice storm on Tuesday, BOOOOOOO!!!! hate ice. As a mother, i have been going through something with my daughter within the last month, she is having issue of being alone. It seems she always wants a friend around to play with. She actually yelled at me and told me it was my fault she was always alone, because i didnt give her a brother or sister. Does this kind of thing happen alot to kids that dont have siblings. I have given into her demands, and i ususally have 2 or more kids here at all times. How do i make her feel secure with being a only child. We play games, we dance and sing together, she goes skating once a week, she is in basketball. What else can i do to try and make her understand. I dont know where she is coming from as i had 3 other siblings growing up. Should i get her counselling?

I have been working nonstop on this rough draft, and i still think it SUCKSSS!!!! Can i get a amen from the crowd about that writing papers makes a person brain dead.Sorry class i just need to vent, this paper is not going the way i want it to, and i have to submit it today, urgggggggggggghh!! I need a shot of something, vodka or maybe morphin, lol. On a lighter note, whats up with the single digits outside. Its so cold outside your snot freezes on your face before  you can wipe it away. Sorry, i experienced this, this morning waiting for the bus with my daughter, it was really gross. My dog doesnt want to go out and pee because it is so cold outside, i have to pick him up and drop him out the back door and then he just sits there and looks at me, like i am abusing him or something. I love winter but when there is no snow on the ground and its this cold it just doesnt make sense, can i at least get some white stuff this way. Welcome to my world!!! Mel

When things look their bleakest, put your chin up and say i can make it better!!!

Things on my end, have been bleak for sometime, i have been unemployed for 7 months with no prospects in the future. This is the reason i decided to go back to college, to try my hand at a new career. I have not this hurtle in my life bring me down, i will succeed in starting a new career and making a fresh start for me and my daughter. The future holds alot of possiblity for me and i will take advantage of every opporunity that crosses my path. Watch out world!!!!

OMG Everybody!!!!

I think i have successfully learned how to use this blog. I wish i was more computer savy. Now i am officially a blogger. Are we suppose to use this for personal use or for class association. I am just amazed i figured this out. YEAH ME!!!!